Nota Bene:
This blog contains narcissism with sarcasm that might offend my readers..Please take it with a grin and a salt... 
In my solitude I have been quite anlytical why I have been flooded by admirers just now. Surely I felt like am some kind of an ugly duckling which morphed to a plain swan...
As a kid, I was used to admiration but not due to outward appearance. Its actually more of the talent and skill which blinded people to think Im actually intelligent.
As a teenager, I was a rebel. And that...is an understatement!
I was chasing a dream which I can not have. I was pretending to be someone which am surely not. And that my dear, is pretending and actually convincing myself that I am special...
For sure, I am not.
On my 20's I started developing something and men notice me now...
It is however an illusion. I am still me... the ugly duckling... pretending to be a swan. Some men or boys might think otherwise but I still am...except that now I am no longer a duckling..am a DUCK!
Am I making sense? Probably not.
My admirers who has been pretty much handy has never been helpful to me. It never deflated my enormous amount of ego. Even if deep down I feel like shit.. I always remind myself that I am pretty. After all, beauty is in the eye of the beholder...
Please..do not step on my hair...
"Haba ng hair ko"
